i was thinking like storming so many thoughts in my mind. ow Much I wanted her to get better, to not cut herself… Its crazy because I was thinking a lot about it, i have some weakness for lost puppies and it felt but its stupid because ti wasnt her and whats truly idiotic is how hward I care for somebody who literally despises me and thinks of me as trash.
like, i am so hyperfixated and easy I was always fucking tool.
When will I get chance to use others?
nevermind, i dont care about things like that. maria doesnt love me and left me. I should get over that unbearable pain because therell be another and another… soon its just i was so eager to help somebody. despite everything just helping them when this person is not gonna do the same.
i was feeling so generous and felt good about it but its in my mind. what im saying is that all of this is me trying to be impressive or to just show genuine affection but none of it will be even read. no its just i fucking hate women I guess.
I cant imagine being with a woman as I grow old I'll just give up completely
tbh i never had even the chance
I wish I could fuck gyaru too thats shame.
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